terça-feira, 11 de junho de 2013
Him, once again
Everything ended a while ago. He left her without a reason or an explanation. She didn’t know how to feel or what to think. She thought it was her, something she had done wrong but how would she know? He was ignoring her, pretending they didn’t even knew each other. It has summer, at least she could be out, she could be with her friends and try to forget he was ever in her life. But that didn’t happen. She kept asking herself for months what she had done wrong, what in her was wrong. She never found an answer so she tried to move on. When she thought she was cured, ready to start a new life with new thoughts and attitude, there he was. His eyes were in her direction, she knew he was looking at her so she stopped. She blocked and didn’t know how to react. The last time she saw him had been three months before. She had forgotten how penetrating his eyes where, how his hair was molded in perfectly shaped curls, how his smile made her melt in a second. He seemed fine, unlike her. His eyes sparkled like she had never seen them do while hers had huge dark circles from the nights crying. He smiled like he was happy, while her mouth never left the straight form from the sadness that was corrupting her from within. She felt like a piano had fallen in her so she look down to try to control her tears. In the ground she saw her heart, broken in a million little pieces. But she raised her head, no one had the right to bring her down. She was broken inside, but no one could see that, she kept smiling while crying within. She knew she was falling off a big cliff but she didn’t show it. She took a deep breath and started walking, passing through him and pretending she didn’t think of him every second of every minute of every day since he left, pretending he was nothing to her, pretending that she remained strong after he left, pretending she was happy even though he wasn’t a part of her life.